Sometimes I just like to ask "What does that mean?" I like to say that for cheap laughs sometimes because, really, who doesn't like a cheap laugh from time to time. But lately I have been asking that question on a deeper level. Tomorrow, 3 May 17, will be six months since I had surgery to remove cancer from my kidney. In medical terms it is called a partial left nephrectomy. Before getting kidney stones in August, flying out to say goodbye to my grandfather in September, burying my grandfather in October, finding out about the mass on my kidney in October, and then surgery in November, I was a pretty active guy. The past 6 months I have not been able to be as active but, boy oh boy, I have torn up some blue bell ice cream. Oh, and tacos. Because who doesn't like ice cream or tacos? Heck, they have even made a taco ice cream. The Choco Taco. However, tomorrow I can now concentrate on getting active again and thankfully Moncrief Cancer Institute (https://www.moncrief.com) will help me. God, I pray that the gluten free pounds that I have gained will quickly vanish. Amen.
But what does that mean? It means that taco pounds will be missed. It means that I can begin to get back to being normal. The past six months have not been easy. I have battled depression. I have sought out the professionals to help me. I have battled anxiety and I have battled thoughts of dying and leaving my family behind. I had to battle these thoughts before when my dad died. My dad died when he was 43 years old of an apparent massive heart attack. My goal is to make it past 43 years of age and then some. I have battled trying to be "Jimmy normal" only to hear the voice of the enemy trip me up. But what does that mean? It means that I have tried to do it all myself and I have failed. Ps. I even argued with my wife. GASP! It's true. I'm not perfect.
On May 18th I have my six month CT Scan. I will be completely honest...I am nervous. Really nervous. However, I have a solid group of friends and family that I can lean on. I also know that God has my back no matter the outcome. Here is the truth in that no one makes it off this rock alive, so let's try to have some fun while we can. I have tried, but it has not been easy when I walk around my house like Eor.
If you remember, then please say a prayer for me as I approach my next CT Scan on May 18th. I will find out the results on May 25th.
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