Jurnee has successfully completed 5 full days of kindergarten. She started last Wednesday and I have to be honest here, my eyes got filled with tears when we dropped her off that first. I blame allergies. At least that is what I told Miriam that, who happened NOT to fall for that. It was strange because Jurnee was in preschool last year for 4 days a week, but dropping her off at Kindergarten seemed completely different. She was walking though the same doors as the "bigger" kids. She didn't want me to walk with her to the door on the second day because she is now a "big girl." Boom! What was that that just hit me in my chest? Was that the elusive heart that my lovely bride tells me I don't have? I think it was. Now listen, I have served in the military, I have been to the desert, I have been randomly shot at (at least I think it was random), I have been strong when others have been weak. I have been the first to volunteer for difficult tasks and the last to leave. But nothing, and I repeat, NOTHING, took me down more then hearing those words leave the mouth of my little princess. I have been outnumbered in fights and still that seemed easier then letting go of my little girls hand to watch her walk through her classroom door.
God is an amazing God. He knew that I needed a daughter to soften this beating thing in my chest that keeps me alive. God knew what he was doing when he brought me and Miriam together. I am not a perfect man, but I serve a perfect God. I need to remind myself everyday that it's not the days in my life that will matter when I die, but what I do in those days that will matter. I need to take advantage of the time I have now with Jurnee because it won't be like this for long.
In Him
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